As I was playing with something for work, I realized that I haven't updated (or even looked at my blog) in years. Reading through some of my older posts (all the way back to 2003) - it's amazing to look back at what I was thinking 7 years ago. And luckily - how much I've learned in those 7 years.

I'm now 31 years old. I first started this blog when I was 24. There are some things that haven't changed. I'm still single. I still work hard in a less than honorable profession. I still have friends who annoy me.

But one thing has changed.

I'm proud to be gay.

I may not be 100% comfortable with it in public. As a matter of fact - I know I'm not. I may never be. For whatever reason, I may always care what others think in this regard. I don't know where that comes from or why I can't ditch that feeling, but it's part of me and I'm learning to accept it.

But things have changed. I have more friends now. Friends who I love. And my gay friends are my best friends. I haven't come out at work, but I donated office space to a gay organization (so I may as well have come out :).

There are aspects of my life that I'll always want to change. But in the interest of not being a debby downer, I'm learning to move past them.

I may never sell my company and be a gazillionaire.

I may never find the "perfect" guy.

I may never be 100% comfortable with being gay.

But I'm happy I'm gay. I'm happy with my work (most of the time). I love my friends, I love my family (I'm an uncle 2x over now!) and I love life.

I'm more confident than ever that who I am is exactly who I'm meant to be. And for a guy who believes God is a superstition, that's decent step forward.