Friday, December 16, 2005

Good lord - what a freaky fucking nightmare tonight wound up being. I went with Giggles (a "friend") to go see The Family Stone, the holiday romantic comedy of the season. It was ok. Afterwards we headed to a bar and had a few drinks. The next thing I know he's railing about one of my friends telling me "well whatever sort of company you want to associate with..." He's calling him an old man who is just out praying on young guys etc. At the end of the day, I thought my friend was much more than this, and regardless of the fact that my friend acknowledged this - he still kept harping on the fact that he was an old, sleazy guy. Yes, because you'll never be old Giggles and no young twink will ever say to you one day that you're an old, sleazy guy as well just because you're attracted to young guys now and then. Give me a break.

Giggles just get SO defensive sometimes - it drives me crazy. So I say that "Yes - he can be sleazy but underneath it all he's a good guy. Don't tell me though that I am what I associate myself with when it comes to my friends though." And I stand by that. There are few guys in this town who I stand by, and this friend is one of 'em.

I don't get Giggles. He seems intent on being always right regardless of the fact that he's so young. I suppose it's just a phase in that age, and it continues at my age, thinking to some degree I know what I'm talking about. But regardless - now I realize that sometimes I need to shut up and listen to what others have to say and consider it. And CONTINUE TO SHUT UP AND THINK ABOUT IT BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING ELSE. I don't agree with just putting something out there without thought or consideration of what it means to other people. It just takes an extra second to be mindful of others' feelings and point-of-view, so why wouldn't you? At the end of the day - I was 20 once like Giggles is now and I know that experience is just irreplaceable in relating to people's situation in life. But on top of the fact that he's attacking my friend, he begins attacking me - saying "Well where are you in your life too?" Just because he met someone 3 months before he moved abroad - and honestly 3 months before he REALLY knows who this guy is (who happens to be a close friend) - doesn't mean you have a right to become a self-righteous ass and tell others what the meaning and worth is to their lives.